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Sad Joy

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I heard a song years ago called Rainy Season. It was about how sometimes we just need to cry. Not because we are sad, or angry and anything like that, but because we just need to cry. I've been in a rainy season for awhile now. Christmas is always a bit rainy for me. Not because I don't enjoy it but because I do. I enjoy sappy movies that make me boo hoo for the dozenth time. I enjoy feeling bad for Charlie Brown and then getting all choked up at the end. I watch Nestor and cry when he is sad and happy when he triumphs. I hear music and bawl like a baby. Now you may wonder about the title of this post. I take joy in my sad times, my rainy seasons. When my heart is full and about to burst, I am alive. i am never more real than when my heart is full and my eyes full. In a few days this will pass and I will be my usual cheerful self. But for now I relish every life affirming tear that tells me my heart is strong and soft and filled to burst. Today my joy is sad, tomorrow it may be happy. Sad or happy, there will be joy. Through tears or twinkle my eyes will see joy for another day. Love you all Roman Roadwalker