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Only 6 More Weeks

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Wow. I can't believe I only have about 6 more weeks before our baby boy will be in my arms. This pregnancy has gone by so fast and so good. I had problems with both girls during my pregnancies but this one .... nothing. And to boot I have been chasing after 2 toddlers so days just have flown by. Normally I would have everything ready by now but I haven't even really begun. I am so anxious and kind of scared. Six weeks is not a long time and as much as I want to hold him and see him I almost feel like I need more time. I go on thursday for my 2 week check up and I am hoping that we'll set the c-section date that day, not that either one of my kids came on those days, but it's nice to know if nothing else they'll be here by that date. Zoee, Faith Anne's best friend, was over today and as usual they completely ignored Emily. I know it is mainly their age. They don't know how to share and be friends with more then one person at a time but it kills me to see my sweet little Emily want to be a part of the group and be left out. So I took her today and asked if she wanted to play blocks with me. Of course she did and so did the other two which I promptly told them no. (I had been asking Faith Anne and Zoee all morning to enclude Emily in their playing but they didn't) So I told them that since they have left her out of their fun we were going to go make our own and they could just continue in their activity. So Emily and I went into the living room and had so much fun playing. I realized this was one of the only one on one play times I have had with her. Faith Anne and I used to have so many playing/learning times and Emily and I have had so few. It was so much fun and then Faith Anne came in and was on the verge of crying and said "it's no fair that you guys are having fun with out us, mommy". Boy that really hurt to see that i had hurt my babies feelings but I had to get the point I had been trying to make for weeks now across so I said "It doesn't feel good to be left out does it, sweetie?" Of course she said "no, you wouldn't like it if I left you out, mommy." I said "no I wouldn't and now maybe you understand how you have made your sister feel. Now if you think you can all play together then you are more then welcome to come play with us." And they did. It was really nice and I decided during our alone play time that we need a lot more of it so I am scheduling playtime with each of my girls. You would think being a stay at home mommy I would have all the time in the world for playing with them but I have found it really hard to balance out house work and kid play and since I am more of a Martha then a Mary I tend to focus on the house work. Okay it is way later then what I thought so I am off to bed.